Omega19x: *knocks on Malik's door*
ph33r my rod: ... *gets up and answers the door*
Omega19x: *It's Ryou... (duh), still in the clothes from the night before.* "... did... did I wake you?"
Omega19x: (it's now early morning, btw)
Omega19x: (at least for me)
ph33r my rod: *shakes head* "...wasn't really asleep."
Omega19x: "..." *looks at the floor, not wanting to look Malik directly in the eyes*
ph33r my rod: *blinks* "...Ryou?"
Omega19x: "... I... " *trying to find the right words*
ph33r my rod: "..." *blink blink*
Omega19x: "... I'm sorry...?"
ph33r my rod: "...for what?"
Omega19x: *looks up at Malik*
Omega19x: "...for... for everything..."
ph33r my rod: "......"
Omega19x: "... for not... being happy... for not... getting well..."
Omega19x: "... for dragging you all out here... in the middle of... America..."
Omega19x: "... for passing out again."
ph33r my rod: "......." *reaches over and pulls him into a hug, not really able to say anything*
Omega19x: *sniffle*
ph33r my rod: (( brb ))
ph33r my rod: (( back ))
Omega19x: "...I'm trying... as hard as I can... really I am... really..."
ph33r my rod: "...I know you are. It's hard to do, but... I'm glad you're at least trying."
Omega19x: "...I... i don't want you... to be worried sick..."
Omega19x: *hugs Malik*
Omega19x: "...I don't want to hurt you anymore."
Omega19x: "I don't want you to be sad."
ph33r my rod: "....." *drops his head to rest on Ryou's shoulder*
Omega19x: "... really... I don't."
ph33r my rod: "...I don't want you to be sad either. And I worry because... well, your sickness... I don't want you to overexert yourself and end up..." *can't finish his sentence*
Omega19x: "... I... I know..."
Omega19x: "... I know."
Omega19x: "...be happy Ryou... be happy... that's what's important, right? Can't be scared. no... Can't feel pain, no..."
Omega19x: "...that's how they all want it, right?"
ph33r my rod: "..."
Omega19x: *trembling half-smile*
Omega19x: "I'm okay... I'm always... okay... how can I ever be anything but... okay?"
Omega19x: "... I try to be okay."
Omega19x: "... Sometimes I think I'm okay. I really do."
ph33r my rod: "..." *just stands there and holds him* "Ryou... I know you're scared, and worried about your yami. You have every right to be. I... I don't know what I can say to... make you feel any better."
Omega19x: "..."
Omega19x: "I..."
Omega19x: "... sorry..."
ph33r my rod: "..." *sighs*
Omega19x: "... I... I... I want to be happy... I really do... I just... and everyone else just... I try not to... and... I... " *doesn't quite have the right words*
Omega19x: "I'm... I'm not like everyone else... I'm not... having... you know... with everyone I can... and taking pills like Mokuba... and getting drunk... and just... only having fun... I've tried to have fun... like everyone else..."
Omega19x: "... but... I... I can't do it."
Omega19x: "... I'm ... I'm sick, I know... but... nobody ever wants to know anything about it... or... or how I really feel... do they?"
Omega19x: "... as long as I'm okay, right?"
Omega19x: "As long as I'm smiling... right?"
Omega19x: "... that's all... that matters."
Omega19x: (the over-arching metaphor here is BLINDING)
ph33r my rod: "..." *lifts his head from Ryou's shoulder and looks him straight in the eyes* "...Ryou? What is something that you want? What do you want to do, how do you want to feel...?"
Omega19x: "... what I really want?"
ph33r my rod: *nods*
Omega19x: "...no... it's... it's silly..."
ph33r my rod: "...don't say that. Tell me what you really want."
Omega19x: "... if... if you don't mind... I... I would like to cry..."
ph33r my rod: "..." *nods* "...go ahead. Let everything out that you want to."
Omega19x: "..." *tears... just stream down his face*
Omega19x: "... I... I'm so... confused... I don't know what's happened to my yami... to my...the... ring... I don't even know what's happening to me..."
Omega19x: "It's all... oh, get well, Ryou. No one wants to see you sad."
Omega19x: "... well... maybe... maybe i am sad... and maybe I should be sad... for... for once..."
Omega19x: "Maybe I am scared..."
Omega19x: "I... I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow... I... I might not even live until then... I know it... everyone else knows it... everyone else wants to protect me..."
Omega19x: "...I... I never wanted this to happen..."
ph33r my rod: "..." *just lightly strokes his hair and lets him vent*
Omega19x: "...and everyone's just... acting like... like my feelings... don't really exist..."
Omega19x: "... the last time... I tried to say what I felt... well... nobody wanted to hear it..."
Omega19x: "...but that doesn't make the... the fear go away... or.. or the pain go away..."
Omega19x: "... it doesn't make me any less weak... does it..."
Omega19x: "..."
ph33r my rod: "...I'm sorry. We should've... we haven't been taking your feelings into consideration. We've just been wanting to see you happy. I'm..." *pulls him back into hug* "...I'm so sorry, Ryou..."
Omega19x: *just... crying*
Omega19x: "... I've been wanting to cry... for... for so long..."
ph33r my rod: "...just... go ahead and cry. If it'll make you feel better, then... just do it."
Omega19x: *weak smile*
Omega19x: "... You're not... mad at me?"
Omega19x: "...for... for crying?"
ph33r my rod: "...no, I'm not mad. I can't be mad at you for it... if it's helping you get everything out of your system..."
Omega19x: *hugs Malik*
Omega19x: "... tha..thank you..."
ph33r my rod: *smiles a little and pets his hair* "...do you feel any better now?"
Omega19x: *looks up weakly* "... a little... yeah..."
ph33r my rod: "...good." *wipes the tears from his face*
Omega19x: *sniffle*
Omega19x: *weak smile*
Omega19x: (And the moral of today's story, modkids, All crack! and no angst... makes for really depressing explosions.)
ph33r my rod: (( Yeeesssss. XDDD ))
Omega19x: (now what is this I'm hearing about another room forming?)
ph33r my rod: (( *shrug* Seto made a room for stuff. Nothing's happening except random OOC chatter. XD ))
Omega19x: (oh, blah)
Omega19x: (quite literally)
ph33r my rod: (( I guess it was made in hopes of something happening, though. XD ))
Omega19x: (I see I have now been invited)