Omega19x: "... Malik? Is... that really you in there?"
ph33r my rod: *prods at himself, just to be sure* "...yeah, it's me." *looks up at Ryou, smiling*
Omega19x: "... I bet it feels good to be back in your own skin again... and out of mine."
ph33r my rod: "...it does."
Omega19x: "... you have a nice body... It... it was nice to be in... for a little while."
ph33r my rod: "It was... different, huh?"
Omega19x: "very."
Omega19x: *weak cough* "... but it is nice to... to be back where I belong, I guess."
ph33r my rod: "...yeah. Are you in any pain at all?" *back to mother hen mode*
Omega19x: "... it's not too bad. I've felt worse. It... just coming back into it all of a sudden... you know."
Omega19x: "... kind of like running into a wall... it's really sudden."
ph33r my rod: "That makes sense, I guess."
Omega19x: "... I thought it would be easier than it was... but... I'll be used to it real soon.

Omega19x: *weak smile*
ph33r my rod: "...that's good." *small smile*
Omega19x: "... I can see why you didn't want to get up..."
ph33r my rod: *rubs back of neck* "...yeah."
Omega19x: "... I guess this needs to be a little tighter..." *opens the corset and tightens it a little, like he watched that doctor do*
Omega19x: "... and I guess I'm not going anywhere for a while either."
ph33r my rod: "...guess not." *scoots up on the bed, next to where Ryou is*
ph33r my rod: "Um... do you need anything?"
Omega19x: "... I am hungry... maybe we could have lunch together."
Omega19x: "... Like a little in-bed picnic."
ph33r my rod: *smiles* "That'd be nice."
Omega19x: *tries to sit up, but that's still pretty painful*
Omega19x: 'Do you need help getting things?"
ph33r my rod: *helps him sit up* "...I can get it fine. Do you want anything in particular?"
Omega19x: *thinks*
Omega19x: "... hmm... do you want to order pizza?"
Omega19x: "... I... I don't think I'm up to cooking anything right now..."
ph33r my rod: "That'll work... we haven't done that in a while."
Omega19x: *weak smile*
ph33r my rod: *magical call-lapse~*
Omega19x: *magical lapselapse*
ph33r my rod: (( Like, lapsing to actually getting the pizza? :O ))
Omega19x: (I was just being funny, but okay.)
ph33r my rod: (( Oh. XD ))
ph33r my rod: *comes back from getting pizza, also with plates and napkins and whatnot* "Here we go~"
Omega19x: *smiles*
ph33r my rod: *opens box, takes a slice, etc*
Omega19x: *smiles, also taking a slice* "... thank you for having a picnic with me."
ph33r my rod: *blinks and smiles back* "...no problem." *eats*
Omega19x: *nibbles* "... I... i think I learned a lot from being in your body."
ph33r my rod: "... Really?"
Omega19x: "... yes."
Omega19x: "... a lot about you."
ph33r my rod: "Like what...?" *eats*
Omega19x: "... that it's not as easy to be you as I thought it was..."
Omega19x: "... you've got your own... um... needs and problems and... well... difficulties..."
ph33r my rod: *blinks*
Omega19x: "... you... you take care of me... and still have time and energy to spare... It's amazing."
ph33r my rod: "...huh. I guess I do. I didn't really notice that before."
Omega19x: "... I'm lucky to have someone like you."
ph33r my rod: "..." *sets down his pizza and wraps his arms around Ryou, giving him a gentle hug* "I think I'm the lucky one. If I hadn't met you, I... can't say where I might be right now."
Omega19x: "... I know where I'd be..."
Omega19x: "... I'd be dead..."
Omega19x: "if I hadn't met you..."
ph33r my rod: *hugs him a little tighter, but not enough to hurt* "..."
ph33r my rod: "I'd... probably still be the same person that I was before them."
Omega19x: "... wh..what kind of person was that?"
ph33r my rod: *hesitates a bit* "...constantly annoying other people, constantly having sex, just... really different than I am now. I'm... much happier now than I was back then."
Omega19x: "... like... Mokuba?"
Omega19x: "... that's... what you used to be like?"
ph33r my rod: *nods* "...yeah. Without all of the obsessing over clothes and popping pills stuff."
Omega19x: "... I never would have guessed that..."
Omega19x: "... well... you had a lot of... um... feelings... down there... maybe I... no... probably couldn't have guessed it..."
ph33r my rod: *nods, embarassed* "...being with you kinda opened my eyes. There's more to life than just... that."
Omega19x: "... everyone... talks a lot about... that... *blush*
ph33r my rod: *lets go of Ryou and starts eating again* "...yeah. But you know, even with everything we've been through regarding this relationship and such, it's... been much more fulfilling than anything I could've done back then." *blushes a little* "I'm... glad that I changed."
Omega19x: "... I... never want to hold you back..."
Omega19x: "in any way..."
ph33r my rod: "...hold me back?"
Omega19x: "... from... from doing what you want... or... you know... that sort of thing... that everyone else does..."
Omega19x: "You spend so much time... taking care of me... Surely I hold you back."
ph33r my rod: "...but see, that's the thing. All of that stuff I did before... I don't want to do them anymore. I mean, it was fun while it lasted, but... now I'd rather spend my time making you happy."
Omega19x: "... I... I just want you to be happy... I don't want you to feel like you have to make me happy."
ph33r my rod: "...I'm happy if you are."
Omega19x: "... are you sure... that's what you want?"
ph33r my rod: *nods and smiles*
Omega19x: "... I.. I just wish I could satisfy... all... of your needs... but... but I can't..."
Omega19x: "... I... I don't know how to stop your kinds of pain..."
ph33r my rod: "...that's okay. As long you're here, then... that's all I really need." *blushes a little*
Omega19x: "... sometimes, I think I just cause you more pain..."
ph33r my rod: "..." *reaches over and lightly touches Ryou's face* "...maybe, but then you always make it better somehow."
Omega19x: *blushes*
Omega19x: "it hurt so bad to see you in pain... in my body..."
ph33r my rod: "...what, when my... uh, your... back was hurting?"
Omega19x: "... Malik... I know what it's like to be me..."
Omega19x: "... It hurt so much to see you... hurting like this."
Omega19x: "... from when I was carrying you in the desert to just a few hours ago... I felt so powerless, despite how strong you are."
ph33r my rod: "...so now you know how I feel whenever I see you hurt."
Omega19x: "mmhmm.."
ph33r my rod: *gently strokes Ryou's cheek* "I'm... not in pain anymore. So it's my turn to worry about you now."
Omega19x: "... You shouldn't ever have to worry like that... ever..."
Omega19x: "... are... are you really happier now... then when you... um... were like what you were before?"
ph33r my rod: *nods*
Omega19x: *it is so hard to believe him, though, Ryou thinks to himself*
ph33r my rod: *wraps an arm around Ryou and leans against him slightly* "...you changed me for the better."
Omega19x: "... o..okay..."
ph33r my rod: *smiles*
ph33r my rod: "And you said that I taught you how to love... I think that, because of you, I learned how too."
Omega19x: "... oh, you already know how..." *blush "... I'm the one who doesn't know anything..."
ph33r my rod: *small smirk* "...I think you know plenty."
Omega19x: *weak smile*
Omega19x: "... if... you say so... I guess..."
ph33r my rod: *pecks him on the cheek* "I do say so."
Omega19x: *sigh*
ph33r my rod: "...something wrong?"
Omega19x: "... n... no... I'm... I'm fine..."
Omega19x: *manages to hide a sniffle*
ph33r my rod: *frowns* "...Ryou, how many times have you said that and it was actually true...?"
Omega19x: "... a... a couple, maybe..."
ph33r my rod: "...please tell me what's wrong."
Omega19x: "I want to... to do so much... I... You know it's true... I only hold you back... from happiness... from everything..."
Omega19x: "... you need a... a lover... a... a boyfriend... not a dependent. Not... not someone like me..."
Omega19x: *a tear rolls down his cheek*
ph33r my rod: "Ryou..." *reaches up and wipes the tear away* "...I don't want anyone else. I don't care if we never... y'know... I just want to be by your side."
Omega19x: "... no matter how many times... I hurt you?"
Omega19x: "Malik, I've been in you... I've felt what you've felt... I know you want more than that..."
ph33r my rod: *sighs* "...what can I do to make you believe me...?"
Omega19x: "... t..tell the truth..."
Omega19x: *cry*
ph33r my rod: *wraps his arms around Ryou, burying his face in his hair* "I am... I promise I am... I would never lie to you, Ryou..."
Omega19x: "... you must be... I... I don't know why someone as wonderful as you... would even want to put up with someone like me..."
ph33r my rod: "...because I love you, okay? What... what more reason do you need...?"
Omega19x: "... I... I don't know..." *sniffle* "... I don't know..."
Omega19x: "I'm... sorry..."
Omega19x: *is just so confused*
ph33r my rod: "...you wanted the truth, so I gave it to you. I love you. More than anything. That's all there is to it. That's... all the truth I can give you... that's all that I have to give you..."
Omega19x: "I'm... sorry... maybe this... this time in each other's bodies was a terrible idea... I... I hardly know what to think anymore..."
Omega19x: "I thought I did..."
Omega19x: "... but now I don't know anything..."
ph33r my rod: "...it's not like we had any choice in being put in each other's bodies, Ryou. It just... happened."
Omega19x: "I... I feel so confused..."
ph33r my rod: *lets go of him a little and looks him in the eys, resting his hand on Ryou's cheek* "...you wanted the truth, and now I do." *sighs* "Please, be honest with me... now that you know what I used to be like, do you... think any different of me? Do you still love me...?"
Omega19x: "... I could never stop loving you..."
Omega19x: "I just... please forgive me for not being everything you need... I... I feel so... lost, sometimes..."
ph33r my rod: "...I forgive you, Ryou. You don't even have to ask."
Omega19x: "...t..teach me... please... to love you how you want to be loved..."
ph33r my rod: "..." *leans forward and kisses him, putting all of the feeling and emotion into it that he possibly can*
Omega19x: *blinks, trembling for a moment, and then tries to do the same thing at teh same time*
ph33r my rod: *keeps with it, holding Ryou close and gently stroking the side of his face*
Omega19x: *didn't want to break it off, but started coughing a little*
ph33r my rod: *blinks and pulls back, still holding him closely*
Omega19x: *winces a little* "...sorry..."
ph33r my rod: *nuzzles Ryou's face, softly kissing his cheek* "...it's okay."
Omega19x: "... This... this is very hard... To... to be honest... after being so... so intimate... so... fast... like we were... I've been so afraid... part of me wants to... to run away from it all... and... and hide..."
Omega19x: "... I'm trying really hard not to listen to that part of me... and not to give in to... to my fear..."
Omega19x: "But it's hard."
ph33r my rod: "I know it is. But just... please, don't hide from me... don't leave me..."
Omega19x: "... it was so fast... so... so very scary..."
Omega19x: "I'm... trying my very best, Malik... I really am."
ph33r my rod: *nods, running his hand through Ryou's hair*
Omega19x: "... it's very scary... to... to have been in you, and know everything about your body... and... and to know you've been in mine... neither... neither really with permission..."
Omega19x: *trembles* "... I've tried not to look or... or anything... I feel so... d..dirty, I guess..."
Omega19x: "... and it's... really hard for me to... to say this, Malik... it... I'm really scared to even say it..."
ph33r my rod: "...what?"
Omega19x: "... everything I... just said..."
Omega19x: *cry*
ph33r my rod: *just holds him, gently rocking back-and-forth* "Shh... I know you're scared... I know it's hard..." *kisses the side of his head* "...just let everything out, Ryou."
Omega19x: (brb dinner.)
Omega19x: (as if on cue, right?)
ph33r my rod: (( *ded* Yeah. XD ))
Omega19x is away at 6:24:53 PM.
Omega19x returned at 7:00:58 PM.
Omega19x: (back)
ph33r my rod: (( WB~ ))
Omega19x: "... I... you know I... I feel insecure... and... and everything... and now you know everything... even... even things I probably don't know I know..."
Omega19x: "... it's been a while since... well... since I've shared my body like that with anyone... just... just my yami before..."
Omega19x: "... and... and I guess I got used to that eventually... but... oh god at first... I... I felt so... so... violated..."
Omega19x: "I got used to it, though... But I've never been in anyone else's body... I... oh you must feel so violated... because of me..."
Omega19x: 'it was my fault the tauk sent us to Egypt... and... and therefore my fault that we were pulled into each other's bodies..."
Omega19x: "... and... and everything went so fast... I... I saw... *blush* ... so much more than I... I should..."
Omega19x: "... I... I don't understand a... a lot of what I... I think I felt... I don't know... I just know I didn't like it very much..."
Omega19x: "... it... it scared me..."
Omega19x: "But... but I didn't want to say anything..."
Omega19x: "... because... well, it is your body, and... and it's beautiful..."
Omega19x: "I didn't want to ruin it..."
ph33r my rod: *just holds Ryou, letting him vent*
Omega19x: "... I'm... scared, Malik. I'm scared..."
Omega19x: "Everything just... went so fast..."
Omega19x: "I don't know if I did anything wrong... or... or what..."
Omega19x: "I'm... sorry."
ph33r my rod: "..." *sighs* "It... scared me too, Ryou. I was afraid to do anything, that I'd do something wrong, or that I'd hurt your body... which did happen, unfortunately..."
Omega19x: "... at least when my yami was in me... I was stronger than this... at least I... I wasn't so pathetic..."
Omega19x: "... You've seen everything I tried to hide, Malik... everything..."
ph33r my rod: "...why did you hide it? Were you afraid I'd... love you any less?"
Omega19x: "... well... maybe...
Omega19x: "... I guess I'm... s..still kind of ashamed of... of what I've become over the past year..."
ph33r my rod: "Ryou..." *softly pecks his lips* "It would take so much more than that to make me think any less of you... I mean, if I... managed to stay in love with you even when you loved Bakura... give me a little more credit than that." *small smile*
Omega19x: *weak smile* "... I... just didn't want you to see me like... I guess like I am... all... thin, sick, weak, broken... the only way you ever have seen me really..."
Omega19x: "I used to... have better days than this... really... Well, some."
ph33r my rod: "...before you got sick?"
Omega19x: "... really really sick, yeah..."
Omega19x: "... that... and... you've seen... *blush* ...private areas too... I'm... a little... embarrassed..."
ph33r my rod: "Well... that couldn't really be helped, when we were in each other's bodies, and all..." *blushes a little* "...don't be ashamed about that, Ryou. We... might've accidently seen each other like that sooner or later anyway."
Omega19x: "... r..right... It's... I've never let... well, cleaning and taking care of this body was my job, not my yami's... he never really saw anything... I don't think..."
Omega19x: "i've never felt... well...very comfortable... I... I try to be, but I'm not..."
ph33r my rod: "...and that's just how some people are. I don't think you should be embarassed about your body though... I mean, you're... beautiful. I think, at least."
Omega19x: *weak smile*
Omega19x: "... th..thanks..."
ph33r my rod: *smiles a little and gently kisses Ryou's forehead* "Come on, now..." *reaches for Ryou's locket, carefully taking it between his fingers* "We're not going to let... something like us switching bodies and you being scared... come between us, are we?"
Omega19x: "...n..no..."
Omega19x: "I hope not."
ph33r my rod: *lets go of the locket, reaching up to touch Ryou's face again* "...I love you too much to let that happen."
Omega19x: "...I'm... still scared..."
Omega19x: "... but I'm not going to let... let fear overpower me."
Omega19x: "I'm through with that."
Omega19x: *slowly manages to sit up completely*
ph33r my rod: "..." *smiles* "...good."
Omega19x: "... This is a new year... and... and this is... a new Ryou Bakura."
Omega19x: "... fear will not win. I... I am stronger than that.":
Omega19x: *winces, and then lays back down gently*
Omega19x: "... the mind is willing, but the body is weak..."
ph33r my rod: "..." *leans over Ryou, brushing some hair out of his face* "Let your back heal up before you try to do anything, okay?"
Omega19x: "I know."
Omega19x: "... it still feels a little strange to be back in my own skin again, I guess."
Omega19x: *blushes* "... I'll try not to run, Malik..."
Omega19x: "... even if I did... though... I doubt I'd get very far right now."
ph33r my rod: "...because I'd find you and bring you back where you belong."
Omega19x: "... that... and it kind of hurts to get up..."
ph33r my rod: *small smirk* "I'm sorry I hurt your back."
Omega19x: "... I... please... I think I... we... need to slow things down... from everything that happened this week..."
Omega19x: "I'm going as fast as I can... and that was too fast..."
ph33r my rod: *nods and moves away, laying down next to him* "...right, sorry."
Omega19x: "... don't... you run away either..."
ph33r my rod: "I won't. I'd never run from you."
Omega19x: "... please..."
Omega19x: "... just... we... need to slow down..."
ph33r my rod: *takes Ryou's hand and brings it up, softly kissing the back of it* "...okay."
Omega19x: *weak smile*
Omega19x: "... thank you... for being so kind to me, Malik."
ph33r my rod: *smiles back, squeezing his hand* "...you're welcome."
Omega19x: "... I do love you so..."
Omega19x: "...even if... if I have a hard time... saying it right."
ph33r my rod: "But you try, and that's what counts." *kisses his hand again* "...I love you too."
Omega19x: "... And I'll keep trying, Malik... even... even if it's hard."
Omega19x: "... and even... when I'm scared..."
ph33r my rod: *smiles* "...that's all that I ask for, is that you try."
Omega19x: *weak smile*
Omega19x: "... maybe... we... should finish our picnic..."
ph33r my rod: *blinks* "...oh yeah. We kinda... forgot about it."
Omega19x: "... will you pass me another slice of pizza?"
ph33r my rod: *nods and sits up, passing him another slice*
Omega19x: *nibbles*
Omega19x: "... thank you.:
Omega19x: "I think this is the best picnic ever."
ph33r my rod: *grins and takes another piece for himself* "Yeah, it is... even if it's just on my bed."
Omega19x: "... but it's your bed."
Omega19x: *smiles*
Omega19x: "and it's the comfiest picnic blanket I've ever sat on."
ph33r my rod: *laughs a little* "Heh... beds have more uses than just sleeping, I guess."