ph33r my rod: *enters... whatever room Ryou's in* "Ryou?"
Omega19x: *Ryou's lying on his bed, just kind of staring up at the ceiling.*
Omega19x: "... oh... hey, Malik..."
ph33r my rod: *smiles a little, sitting on the edge of the bed* "You okay...?"
Omega19x: *a weak shrug*
Omega19x: "... lonely, I guess..."
ph33r my rod: *takes Ryou's hand, giving it a gentle squeeze* "The house feels a lot emptier, doesn't it..."
Omega19x: "It does... even if they were only here for a short while..."
ph33r my rod: "Well... at least we did get to look after them for a while. If this happened to anyone else, they might not have gotten to."
Omega19x: *weak nod*
Omega19x: "I... I still feel... empty, I guess... though."
ph33r my rod: "I'd imagine so... they were inside you for so long that it kinda feels like you lost a part of yourself?" *lays down next to him*
Omega19x: *nods weakly again*
Omega19x: "... I'm sorry..."
ph33r my rod: "It's okay... we still have the memories of them, you know."
Omega19x: "... I know."
Omega19x: "... it's just... I really liked being needed like... like that..."
Omega19x: "I... I was a mommy..."
Omega19x: "Nobody else needs me... really... My yami doesn't need me... I... I drove all the way to Tokyo to help out Katsuya, and... and he was gone by the time I got there... Nobody needs me..."
ph33r my rod: "... I need you."
Omega19x: *looks up at Malik*
Omega19x: "... wh....why would you need me?"
ph33r my rod: *props himself up on his elbow* "Because I don't think I could live without you..."
Omega19x: "... b..but what... what can I do for you... r..really do for you...?"
Omega19x: 'Everything I ever try to do turns out wrong..."
ph33r my rod: *wraps his arm around Ryou's waist, leaning over him a bit* "But as long as you're here, it doesn't matter if things turn out wrong. As long as we're together, I... as long as I still have you, then I know everything's alright."
Omega19x: "... r..really?"
ph33r my rod: *nods* "...really."
Omega19x: "... you're the best, Malik..."
ph33r my rod: *smiles and leans down, kissing his forehead* "Just don't think that nobody needs you, because I do. And I always will."
Omega19x: *a tear rolls down his cheek*
ph33r my rod: *wipes it away*
Omega19x: "... I... I want to be needed..."
Omega19x: "I... I want to help you... and... and make your life wonderful... and... all that..."
ph33r my rod: *snuggles up next to him, gently resting his head on Ryou's shoulder* "You do... you give me a reason to get up every morning..."
Omega19x: "... I... I know... It's... I'm sorry... when the babies were here... I... I felt so happy. I felt so complete. Now... now I just feel... sad..."
Omega19x: "... You... you haven't done anything wrong... really you haven't... it's.... it's me..."
ph33r my rod: "... You always go out of your way to make me happy. What can I do to make you happy?"
Omega19x: *is it sad that such a question takes Ryou by complete surprise. Or is it just sad that he doesn't know what makes him happy.*
Omega19x: "... m...make me happy?"
ph33r my rod: *nods* "I want to make you happy..."
Omega19x: "... I... I don't... know."
ph33r my rod: "..." *lifts his head, looking down at him* "You don't know...?"
Omega19x: "... Malik, I really don't know what makes me happy. I... I guess I... I learned that too... from... from when the babies were here... I... I'd never felt that way before... I... I guess I don't have the foggiest idea what... what makes me happy..."
Omega19x: "I... I guess I've never really been really happy..."
Omega19x: *big sad brown eyes look back at Malik, longing for something, though he doesn't even know what it is.*
ph33r my rod: "...if you don't know what makes you happy, then I don't know how I can do it..."
Omega19x: *sniffle* "... I'm... sorry..."
Omega19x: "... I guess some people just... aren't supposed to be happy..."
ph33r my rod: *leans down again, softly kissing his lips* "Does being with me make you happy? At all...?"
Omega19x: "... I... I think so... I... I want to be with you... at any cost.. I want to make your life wonderful..."
Omega19x: "...th..that's not... happiness.. is it..."
ph33r my rod: "...if you're not happy, then I'm not."
Omega19x: "then... I guess you'll never be happy... will you?"
Omega19x: "really... truly happy..."
Omega19x: "...because... b..because I just... I just don't know what... h..how to be happy..."
Omega19x: "I'm... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."
ph33r my rod: "..." *lays his head back down on Ryou's shoulder, hugging him tightly*
Omega19x: *cries*
Omega19x: (maybe we should try to help him figure out what makes him happy.)
ph33r my rod: (( *nod* ;; ))
Omega19x: *just... cries*
Omega19x: "I... I mean... I... I've thought I was happy... but... but once I learned what... what it really felt like... I... I guess I... I was wrong... about being happy."
Omega19x: "... to... to just be... bouncing with... some kind of joy... for... for no reason... happy... it... it makes everything I... I know feel... so hollow, Malik..."
ph33r my rod: *holds him, gently wiping the tears from his face* "You were happy when the babies were here. That was... probably the happiest I'd ever seen you..."
Omega19x: "... I... I was..."
Omega19x: "I'd never felt... anything like that before... It... it was wonderful..."
Omega19x: "But it's gone now..."
ph33r my rod: "...you know, if you want that kinda motherly feeling... just think of Zahra. You help take care of her, so you're kind of like a surrogate mother... but that's probably not the same thing, is it..."
Omega19x: "... no... As much as I love her... you know... It's... not..."
Omega19x: *looks down* "... Malik, maybe we should just face it... I'm... not supposed to be happy."
Omega19x: "I... I can't even remember being happy... not in the last ten years anyway..."
Omega19x: "...really happy, you know?"
ph33r my rod: "... Maybe we should try something new. Something you've never done before... so you wouldn't know if it would make you happy or not. Because nobody's supposed to be sad, either..."
Omega19x: "...o...okay..."
Omega19x: *looks a little hopeful*
ph33r my rod: "Maybe we should take a vacation of some kind... just the two of us. I mean... I know our track record with 'vacations' isn't very good, but... this time, it might be different, y'know?"
Omega19x: "... okay..."
Omega19x: "... please, Malik... I... I want to feel really happy, like that again... I really do..."
ph33r my rod: (( brb ))
ph33r my rod: *smiles a little, gently stroking his face* "I'll try the best I can... 'cause if I can't make you happy, then I'm not a very good boyfriend, huh?"
Omega19x: "It's not your fault..."
Omega19x: "... the... the closest things I've ever felt to... to happiness were... when I was with you..."
ph33r my rod: "...then I promise I'll try everything I can, okay?"
Omega19x: "... when you rescued me from Atlantis... wh...when you held me when we were... freezing to death in the mountains... when you carried me home after my apartment was robbed..."
Omega19x: "... those at... at least came kind of... close..."
Omega19x: *is seriously trying to remember when he was at least somewhat happy*
Omega19x: "... but... th..the way we kissed when... when the babies were here... that... that was more than any of those put togehter."
ph33r my rod: "..." *leans down and briefly kisses him, trying to put the same feeling into it as the one he just described*
Omega19x: *tries, but sighs* "... it's... just not the same..."
ph33r my rod: "...I'm sorry."
Omega19x: "... no... wh..why should you be sorry... It's... my fault."
ph33r my rod: *sighs* "...I'd just give anything to see you smiling. I'd... I'd gladly chop off my own hair if it would make you happy, that's how far I'd go..."
Omega19x: "... that... wouldn't make me happy..."
Omega19x: "... I think your hair is safe..."
ph33r my rod: "I know, but I'm just saying... you have no idea how far I'd go to make you happy."
Omega19x: "...w..would you... even... m..make love to.. to me?"
ph33r my rod: *nods* "In a heartbeat."
Omega19x: "... I... don't know what... what making ... l..love is... but... I... um... does it... make you happy?"
ph33r my rod: *blushes* "It... would, yes."
Omega19x: "... o...okay..."
ph33r my rod: *blushes more* "Um... maybe I should explain that term to you, though... if you don't know what it means."
Omega19x: "I... kind of know..."
Omega19x: "a little..."
ph33r my rod: "...do you?"
Omega19x: "Everyone... um... talks about you know..."
Omega19x: "Amane says it's... it's supposed to be... v..very wonderful...."
ph33r my rod: "When it's with someone you really love, it's supposed to be, yes... that's the difference between making love and having sex. I've... never made love to anyone before."
Omega19x: "... I... I thought you... you'd um... you know... with lots of... of people..."
ph33r my rod: "I have, yeah, but... never with anyone that I truly loved."
Omega19x: "... oh..."
Omega19x: *he looks down*
Omega19x: "... sorry..."
ph33r my rod: *gently lifts his chin* "Ryou, if you were ready for it... I'd gladly make love to you."
Omega19x: *weak nod*
Omega19x: "... I... I want to... f...for you..."
ph33r my rod: *blushes* "...really?"
Omega19x: *timid nod*
ph33r my rod: "...you would really do that for me...?"
Omega19x: *another timid nod*
Omega19x: (I'm wondering how far they'd actually get.)
ph33r my rod: (( I bet they wouldn't even get fully undressed before Ryou blushed himself into unconsciousness. XD ))
Omega19x: (yeah, probably.)
Omega19x: *a few minutes later, and Ryou had finally taken off his shirt. He watched Malik nervously.* "... th..this will m..make you happy... right?"
ph33r my rod: *nods and starts pulling off his own shirt, attempting to hide his blush, which he has no idea why it's still there* "I... if it'll show you how much I love you, then... you have no idea how happy it would make me."
Omega19x: *trembles, looking up at Malik, his arms crossing over his pale, scarred, and now naked chest.*
Omega19x: "... o...okay... I'm... ..r..ready..."
Omega19x: *closes his eyes, and trembles, as if he's preparing to be beaten up*
ph33r my rod: *reaches over, gently stroking his shoulder* "It's going to hurt a bit since it's your first time. But that's normal..."
Omega19x: "..o..o..ok..ay..." *nods a little*
Omega19x: *blush*
Omega19x: *lies there, eyes closed, not knowing what else to do*
ph33r my rod: *gently kisses him and runs his hand down Ryou's arm, taking his hand* "I'll go slowly, okay? That way it might not hurt as much..."
Omega19x: *trembles, and curls up a little.* "... ok..okay... Anything you... you say..."
Omega19x: *he buries his head in the pillow, hoping it will be over soon.*
ph33r my rod: *looks down at him, frowning* "Are you sure you're ready for this...?"
Omega19x: "... y...yes... I'm... I'm... sure..." *he closes his eyes tighter*
Omega19x: *tremble, shake, fear*
ph33r my rod: *strokes his cheek* "Ryou... look at me."
Omega19x: *he keeps his head buried*
Omega19x: "...pl..please... m...make love to me... I... I want you to be happy..."
ph33r my rod: "...you're scared. If you're uncomfortable with it, I don't want to force you to..."
Omega19x: "It's... supposed to make... m..me happy, too... right?"
Omega19x: "And... and it's... all you ever wanted... so it'll make you happy..."
Omega19x: "... just... d...do it, please..." *tremble, shake*
ph33r my rod: "...okay, if you think you're really ready..." *leans down to kiss his cheek, gently stroking up and down Ryou's side*
Omega19x: *meep*
Omega19x: *Ryou bites down on his lip*
Omega19x: *he... he has to do this. It's the only way*
Omega19x: *the only way anyone is going to ever be happy... ever...*
ph33r my rod: *tries to distract him by placing little kisses all over his neck and face, reaching down to undo Ryou's pants*
Omega19x: *Ryou can't help but blush. He bites his lip so hard that he cuts it, and blood dribbles from his mouth*
ph33r my rod: "Ryou..." *carefully pulls his pants off, a little worried about the blood*
Omega19x: *trembles on the bed, completely terrified. Ryou keeps his eyes tightly closed, trying not to cry*
Omega19x: *his entire body shakes, shivering with both cold and fear*
Omega19x: *and yes, he's wearing boxers, in case you were wondering*
ph33r my rod: *I figured so*
Omega19x: "...w..wh..at are you..w..waiting for... J..just.. .g..get it... o..overwith..." *scared shitless*
Omega19x: *tears stream down his cheeks*
Omega19x: *c..cry*
ph33r my rod: *starts to undo his own pants, but looks up at Ryou's face, and stops* "... ... ...you're not ready."
Omega19x: *just... cries*
Omega19x: "... I... I want so bad... to... to make you happy..."
Omega19x: "...I..."
Omega19x: *just covers his face in his hands, and cries*
ph33r my rod: "..." *moves off of him* "It's not worth it if it scares you this much..."
Omega19x: *gulp* "...I'm...s..sorry..."
Omega19x: "I'm... really sorry..."
ph33r my rod: *curls up behind him, holding him around the waist* "It's alright... maybe it's just not the right time for this yet..."
Omega19x: "...I... I tried... I really really tried..."
ph33r my rod: *nuzzles the back of his head* "I know you did, love... maybe we can try again another time, when it's more... appropriate."
Omega19x: "I... I just... I want you to be happy... I... I want to be happy too..."
Omega19x: "I'm... I'm not happy..."
Omega19x: "I'm... s..scared, and... and... I...I don't know..."
ph33r my rod: "You're still coming down from the whole pregnancy thing, and letting the babies go... this just isn't really the right time for it in general."
Omega19x: *turns around in Malik's arms, and buries his head in Malik's shirtless chest*
Omega19x: "...I'm sorry..."
Omega19x: "...do... do you..s..still.... l...love me?"
ph33r my rod: *kisses the top of Ryou's head, running his hands through his hair in a soothing manner* "Of course I do... I'll love you even if we don't ever make love..."
Omega19x: "...r..really?"
ph33r my rod: *nods* "Really..."
Omega19x: *looks him in the eyes.*
Omega19x: *and smiles*
Omega19x: *its a weak smile, but a smile.*
ph33r my rod: *smiles back* "I love you..."
Omega19x: "I... I love you too..." *and he leans in, kissing Malik. And this time, it feels happy.*
ph33r my rod: *returns the kiss, holding Ryou close*
Omega19x: *they kiss for a little while longer*
ph33r my rod: *breaks it off eventually, burying his face in Ryou's hair*
Omega19x: "th..thank you..."
ph33r my rod: "...for what?"
Omega19x: "... for... making me... happy... I guess..."
ph33r my rod: "I try..."
Omega19x: *weak smile*
Omega19x: *nuzzles up next to him*