Omega19x: *Mahaado is lying in the hospital bed, thinking.... thinking...*
ph33r my rod: *knocks on the door*
Omega19x: "yes?"
ph33r my rod: *peeks in* "Oh, you're awake..."
Omega19x: "Oh, hello priestess. Yes, I have been awake for quite some time, I am afraid."
ph33r my rod: "I see... do you mind if I come in?"
Omega19x: "Not at all. The company would be pleasant... That is, if you do not mind."
Omega19x: "I'm afraid I have not been much of myself lately. Or perhaps I have been a little too much like myself for my own good."
ph33r my rod: *enters the room and shuts the door behind her, then takes a seat next to the bed* "...what do you mean?"
Omega19x: "Honda was right, about a great many things. That young man is brighter than he often believes. Rishid would not have wanted this."
Omega19x: "He would not have wanted me to take my own life, not in this way. And not in the ways I will admit to contemplating."
ph33r my rod: *looks down at her lap, obviously still troubled about this* "...that's right."
Omega19x: "But priestess, how I wish I could use your tauk to gaze into my future, to see how I manage to move forward. I do not even know what happened to my dear friend. How I failed him."
Omega19x: "When I awoke, both he and the sanctuary were gone."
Omega19x: "There is so much that I do not know. I just know that he... he is gone."
ph33r my rod: "... If I still had it, I'd let you use it. Because I want to know what happened to him, as well..." *sighs* "I don't know how I'm going to tell Malik about this..."
Omega19x: "There were no remains, nothing. I tried to find even a glimpse of his soul, but I could not."
Omega19x: "There is such an emptiness within me, priestess. Far greater than the desecration of the great pharaoh's tomb, or any of my past failures."
ph33r my rod: "Because you've... lost a friend?"
Omega19x: "The most dear friend I have ever known."
Omega19x: "In this era, he was a man of principles and honor. One does not find such a soul here, as I have learned."
ph33r my rod: *nods, suddenly looking a lot more tired* "Yes... he was a good person, and a wonderful brother. To both Malik and myself."
Omega19x: "A man of such honor does not deserve to be taken away by such a creature. He did not deserve to be haunted by darkness."
Omega19x: "He does not deserve to see Osiris. At least not yet."
ph33r my rod: *shakes head, briefly wiping at her eyes*
Omega19x: "Had my powers not given out, had I one more ounce of ba, perhaps his life would have been spared."
Omega19x: *tears up*
Omega19x: "It took all I had to maintain the shield our four bodies. And to fuel attacks on par with the thief's Diabound and your brother's Ra."
ph33r my rod: "...you did the best you could, then."
Omega19x: "But it wasn't enough, good priestess. My heka was exhausted. I lost consciousness. My ka still lives. I would be dead had it not survived the battle intact, but I do not know how."
Omega19x: "But in that moment, something happened. By the time I regained any strength at all, it was far too late. I had failed in my duty as protector."
ph33r my rod: "..." *doesn't know what to say, just reaches over and places her hand on his shoulder, in hopes that it will comfort him at least a little*
Omega19x: "I know that, priestess, I am a spirit sorcerer. I should be able to reach out to his soul, if it still exists at all, even past death. But I cannot."
Omega19x: (that mind is SOOOOOO unfocused it's not even funny. How could he even do simple magic?)
ph33r my rod: "It... may still exist. Perhaps something is just cloaking it somehow...?"
Omega19x: "I do not know. And I have felt nothing except my own regrets and a deep sense of sadness."
Omega19x: "I can perform simple spells at best."
ph33r my rod: *sighs* "There's got to be a way to get him back..." *shakes head* "He can't have just... vanished. Not his body and his soul..." *is clearly still in the denial stage*
Omega19x: "I know, priestess. I wish it weren't so."
Omega19x: "I wish it were not so."
ph33r my rod: *looks down at the floor again, trembling slightly*
Omega19x: *reaches up, and puts his hand on her shoulder.* "I am sorry I... could not have saved your brother. I... I am so very sorry."
Omega19x: "I would have gladly given my life so that he could be spared, priestess. That is the depth of my devotion to my friends."
ph33r my rod: *sniffle* "I'm... trying not to give up hope, really..."
ph33r my rod: "I mean... he can't just disappear into thin air. It's impossible. Matter cannot be destroyed completely..." *sighs, resting her head in her hands*
Omega19x: "I am... sorry..."
Omega19x: "Perhaps, that could be so priestess. My mind has not been at all clear. Perhaps the fault lies in my eyes. But I fear the worst."
ph33r my rod: *nods and looks up* "I can't help but fear the worst, as well..." *wipes at her eyes again* "...but I'm hoping for the best."
Omega19x: *holds out his hand towards Isis*
Omega19x: "Please, hold my hope in your hands. I fear I cannot cultivate it like you can."
ph33r my rod: *nods and takes Mahaado's hand in both of hers*
Omega19x: "I will not let Rishid have gone in vain. If his soul still exists somewhere, I will search for it."
Omega19x: *he even tries to get up, right then and there, but is still weak, given everything that happened the day before*
Omega19x: "In time, I will search for it." *amended statement*
ph33r my rod: "Right, you... you're still weak right now. You should rest for now..."
Omega19x: "A sorcerer's best asset is his mind. And I have been wasting mine these past few days."
ph33r my rod: "If there's anything I can do to help, I'd be glad to..."
Omega19x: "Priestess, you are helping. Simply by being here."
ph33r my rod: "...am I?"
Omega19x: "Yes. It is people such as yourself that serve as a reminder that I must not give up hope. Rishid... would not have wanted it that way."
ph33r my rod: *nods* "Right, he would want us to keep trying..."
Omega19x: "Or at the very least, not to follow him to Osiris' gate so quickly. Honda is right."
ph33r my rod: *shakes head* "Taking your own life wouldn't bring him back... and he wouldn't want that, either."
Omega19x: "As I have said before, I have not been thinking clearly."
Omega19x: "My mind has been clouded with regret and with grief. And despite decades of training, I was not able to silence the pain."
ph33r my rod: "...the pain can last a long time." *looks down at the floor* "But you have friends to help you through it, at least..."
Omega19x: "as do you, priestess. As do you."
ph33r my rod: *nods and subconsciously grips his hand tighter*
Omega19x: "I should meditate."
Omega19x: "It would do me well."
ph33r my rod: *lets go of his hand* "Right, it would help you clear your mind... would you like me to leave you alone so you can concentrate?"
Omega19x: "I feel it would be best, priestess."
Omega19x: "It is time I start doing the right thing."
ph33r my rod: "Alright... I should probably go home and get some rest; I admit, I didn't get much of it last night because I was worried about you and Rishid..." *stands up*
Omega19x: "I am truly sorry for that, great priestess."
ph33r my rod: *attempts a weak smile* "It wasn't the first time it's happened, so..."
Omega19x: "Take care of yourself, priestess. Rest. I should do the same."
ph33r my rod: *nods and starts walking toward the door* "Yes, that'd be good... good luck with the meditation."
Omega19x: "thank you priestess"
Omega19x: *closes his eyes*
ph33r my rod: *quietly exits the room*