Omega19x: *Ryou is sitting on the couch, curled up, watching TV*
ph33r my rod: *comes downstairs*
Omega19x: *has been a little embarrassed, etc, about what happened this past weekend.*
ph33r my rod: "...hey, Ryou." *sits next to him*
Omega19x: *looks up, weak smile* "... hi Malik."
Omega19x: *curls next to him immediately*
ph33r my rod: *smiles back, wrapping an arm around him* "What's up...?"
Omega19x: "... just... thinking, a little."
Omega19x: "... about... things..."
Omega19x: "... about... um... well... you know..."
ph33r my rod: "...oh. Um."
Omega19x: "I... I'm... not ready... I... I've been doing a lot of thinking... and I... think I kind of understand why I'm... not ready..."
ph33r my rod: "You wanna talk about it?"
Omega19x: *looks up, and nods weakly*
Omega19x: "... I... I'm... s..still scared ... of... of that type of... intimacy... I guess... It's like being inside someone... and... that's... that's a hard thing... a... a very scary thing..."
Omega19x: "I've shared a body with someone else... I... I care about my yami deeply, but... after a while of... of not... I... guess... I don't really feel comfortable about... th...the idea of... someone... um... inside me..."
Omega19x: *you can tell he'd been rehearsing that for a while.*
ph33r my rod: "...that's understandable. And then there was the whole switching bodies thing... that made you really uncomfortable too, despite how close we are."
Omega19x: "... y..you could say that..."
Omega19x: (though it would have been funny for him to switch bodies with Bakura. Bakura would be all 'hm. been here before.')
ph33r my rod: (( XDDD ))
Omega19x: "... and.. and when the clouds hit... it... it was like my yami was in there all over again... I... I did horrible things..."
Omega19x: "I... I hurt people... and... I hurt myself..."
Omega19x: "... and... and the alien babies... th..they were inside of me..."
ph33r my rod: *wraps his other arm around Ryou, gently hugging him* "...so you're just tired of your body being uh... 'invaded', basically?"
Omega19x: "... in...invaded... um... strong word... well... I... I guess so...A lot of people have been in there... um... even doctors, I guess..."
Omega19x: "I... have... a hard enough time... just... being me in here..."
Omega19x: "... I... I hope you... um... c..can understand... I... I barely do..."
ph33r my rod: *nods* "I understand... kind of. Really, it's not that bad, but with everything you've been through, I can see why you're so scared." *hugs him again* "It's okay..."
Omega19x: "... Before I... before I met you, I... I didn't think I could... ever be close to anyone... well... besides my yami, I guess... Being close to someone... well... we know what used to happen... People would die..."
Omega19x: "But you taught me that... that being close to someone is... is pleasurable... and... and I like it... I like it when you touch me... and... and hug me... and... and even k..kiss me..."
ph33r my rod: *snuggles close* "Just the feeling of being with someone is nice."
Omega19x: "... I'm... still getting used to... um... all of that... I... please... please don't... be... be mad or upset, but I'm... really not ready to... to be that... intimate... I... not right now..."
Omega19x: *also obviously rehearsed*
ph33r my rod: "I'm not upset, I promise." *smiles* "It took you a really long time before you could even kiss me... I'm normally not so patient, but when it comes to you, I could really wait forever..."
Omega19x: "... is... th..that how you... really feel about... um... you know? You... um... you've been... um... well... with lots of people... right?"
ph33r my rod: "Well, yeah, but..." *sighs* "I'll be honest with you - it's been so long since I've done that, that I've gotten used to going without it... and I'm kinda scared that if I do do it again, then I'll go back to my... old ways. And I don't want that to happen..." *looks down at his face* "...I don't want to drive you away."
Omega19x: "... old ways?"
ph33r my rod: "You know... being like Mokuba."
Omega19x: "...y...you were like... M..mokuba?"
Omega19x: "... no... You're so kind, and gentle, and... and everything he... he isn't..."
ph33r my rod: "Well... not exactly like him. But I told you about when I'd constantly be doing... y'know..." *rests his chin on Ryou's head* "I don't want to be like that again."
Omega19x: "... you mean, even... after being in... um... inside... well... yeah... you'd rather... just... well... c..cuddle and hug?"
ph33r my rod: "...pretty much, yeah."
Omega19x: "... really?"
Omega19x: "... everyone keeps saying how... um.. .wonderful... and... well... great it is... Is... is it?"
ph33r my rod: "It is, yeah. It's..." *blush* "Really pleasurable. But it's also tiring, and not always safe, and yeah... but I could really sit with you and just cuddle all day, and I think it would have the same effect..."
Omega19x: "... really?"
ph33r my rod: *nods* "Really..."
Omega19x: *smiles*
Omega19x: "... I'd... like that..."
Omega19x: "...the... the cuddling... is... as... well... like you know... and just as good... and... " *smile*
ph33r my rod: *smiles back* "I wouldn't complain if you were actually ready someday, but... just the cuddling and hugging and the occasional kiss will suffice for now." *hugs him tightly*
Omega19x: "... I can do that..."
Omega19x: *hugs back, and pecks him on the cheek*
Omega19x: "... I... I can do that..."
Omega19x: *sweet tender smile*